Month you're born in
JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be
quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
_________________________________ AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make
friends .
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.
Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of
what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises.
High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable _________________________________
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing
personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical
Food Cravings
Time now is 1am and I don't even know why I'm hungry. I had dinner at like what 7/8 plus? And now, I'm hungry? I don't even know what's wrong with me. All I know is that Scarlet is gonna drop by soon and it's not going to be a nice one. The signs are all showing.
Like, the pimple on my nose. And and the tears. And the super tired body.
However the most insignificant is the HUNGER and CRAVINGS.
Everybody knows I love to eat and you can usually catch me munching on something like every few hours. This is like the most insignificant one because it happens every day except when Scarlet is coming, it gets worse.
Anyway, like everybody knows...
I have cravings and I'm such a foodie so... I'm gonna list out the food that I'm craving for. Although, I know my cravings for some of them would never be satisfied. ):
1.
CARL'S JR PORTOBELLO MUSHROOM BURGER
I have been craving for this since December mind you. :\ And I would have probably gone to eat it before work or something at Far East but sadly the Far East outlet is not there anymore. ): Grrr.
This burger is more than just a burger. It has black angus beef, tomatoes, onions, cheese and most importantly the mushrooms. Don't even get me started on how juicy this burger is. I'm already drooling in front of the computer.
No, Burger King can't compare to the yummy goodness of this burger because portobello mushrooms are simply delightful. Portobello mushrooms are much more exquisite mind you. Plus, this burger is so damn big and so yummy. One bite and it's heaven!
I still remember the very first time I tried this heavenly burger. It was at KL. Ahhhhhhh.
I'm waiting for post UTs to go out with Karishma just to eat my burger. :D
Yes, burger. Wait for me.
2.
POPEYE CHICKEN
This was only recently added to the list as of 30 mins ago because I was thinking about chicken wings. This is like the yummiest chicken ever. I haven't eaten KFC in days okay and this chicken is all I am ever dreaming about. It's huge, crispy and juicy. Totally melts in your mouth. I like. It's not that spicy and not that oily
Although its at the other end of the Earth, or rather Sg... The food is worth it. Or I can go to Sg flyer! :D
3.
SHOKUDO
Not exactly the name of the food but you get what I intended.
I'm craving for Japanese food. YES. Shokudo is very marche styled and I love the ambience.
Can't believe I worked at Raffles Place but not once did I go in to eat the yummy yummy food. Grrr. ):
Okay, so the first time I ate here was with Joyce & Charmaine and I swear its like a Japanese food haven. No, it's not just sushi. In fact, you have much more such as the baked Japanese curry rice, onigiri, salmon belly and much much more. Did I mention how yummy everything looks?
It's perfect for a dinner with friends because you should share and try out everybody's food. Though it's not halal of course. HAHA.
It's expensive though but for the food, it's worth it!
4.
DONUTS
Desert? Yes. Pretty much or perfect as a snack. I just love these donuts. I'll go nom nom nom the minute I see these yummy things. These pictures don't do justice to how amazing donuts are. I know the donut craze is dying but it doesn't hurt to eat them. The new flavours and the jam that melts in your mouth. I take a bite and it's heaven. Sweet sweet paradise.
We now have Donut Factory, Dunkin Donuts etc. It's too good. (:
More choices. Oh. I haven't tried J.Co Donuts though. ):
5.
Portuguese Egg Tarts
I'm in love with tarts especially egg tarts. I usually eat the traditional egg tarts but my mom bought these lovely egg tarts from Bukit Gombak and from then on, I fell in love with them. It's not the same as those traditional egg tarts because these ones have a more crispy and flaky crust which is yummy to chew on. However, the main purpose of me eating these egg tarts are the custard. Ahh. So sweet. :D
I tried some at the famous beancurd store and yes, it's still delightful. It's sinful but everything sinful is equal to goodness and enjoyment.
I'll be eating them soon. That I am very sure of.
6.
CHIPPY'S
Non-halal but definitely worth it. Or you can try the fried mars bars. I'm actually craving for the sausage and mashed potato because they're so good. It's fucking cheese sausage. Although when you eat it, it does look wrong but you know... I'm in love with BBF. Beer battered fish. It's just goodness and the serving is worth your money. I pay like less than 5 and I get a proper meal for that. The servings are huge. Fries and fish. Ooomph! :D
The cheesy curry chicken is also good except that after you eat it, you'll probably need lots of water to drink. Too much salt or something? Ask for the spicy, regular is just a bit boring sometimes.
Sadly. I've never tried the calamari rings mainly because I can't eat. HAHAHA!
We have an outlet at CCK too, but I don't eat there because people stare. LOL. So Far East or Raffles Place will do me good.
7.
TAKOYAKI
Balls. Balls and balls.
Takoyaki is a japanese dish. It means octopus balls, but obviously seeing the fact that I can't eat seafood, I only eat the ones with ham. It's something like the malay jemput jemput except its in the shape of a ball.You should try. Pasar malams sell these too and boy, do I love buying them. For $2, I get 3 balls and when eaten hot, the feeling is oomph! I love to eat them hot mind you. There's just this delightful taste when eaten hot. I don't know, there's this burning sensation in your mouth and as your eyes begin to tear, you slowly swallow the ball and the heat goes down your body. Ahhh.
It's balls of heaven!
Recently, I tried the takoyaki at 313 and they have more flavours. Usually, its just ham and cheese, prawn and octopus but now, there's salmon, beef and cheese, mushroom and cheese, peach and cheese. The numerous flavours makes you just want to try all of them and that's what I'm intending to do. For $3, I got 4 balls. More than the usual 3.
You definitely should try.
8.
Nasi Ayam Penyet
Okay, the only reason why I love eating this is because of the sambal. Nothing else. It's just normal chicken rice except the sambal is spicier and tangier. I don't even eat chicken rice with sambal but this one. Ooh! I eat. I eat and I eat until I sweat profusely. Damn good man.
:D
9.
SUBWAY
To think that there's Subway in school. :\
I'm getting sick of just Cold Cut Trio. Not nice anymore. I want to try something that has flavour. And for this, I can only get at KL because it serves no pork. I is angry. Very very. Oh well, I'm craving so much for Subway. The mustard sauce, the honey mustard and the bread. Let's pray I'll eat it on Monday or you'll never hear the end of it. HAHA. (:
Okay, I just like the taste of the bread okay? ): Pfffft.
10.
FISH HEAD STEAMBOAT
Thanks ah Meng Hao for introducing me to steamboat especially Fish head steamboat. There's milk in the soup. Or at least I think its milk and its pretty cheap. The fish is fresh and it's absolutely YUMMY. Or maybe I was just hungry. Still, I love this.
Imagine, I ate 3 bowls of rice. Must have been good. And I rarely eat soup okay.
But I think what makes it wonderful is when you eat with friends.
So W46C, steamboat?? :D
LOL. :D
Saturday, January 30, 2010
She'll destroy us before she's through.
I've sunk into the deepest bullshit hole ever and though I would love to run away, I just can't because I don't know how to. Your words caught me off guard and know before I know it, I've fallen into your beautiful trap. I don't believe in love. Or at least that's what I want to say.
But you gave me butterflies. And it's tingling every minute I think about you.
So what is this?
Friday, January 29, 2010
You gotta be strong and not let them break your heart. Be bulletproof baby.
For all these years, I've always thought that the supernatural was scary but after that incident, maybe things have changed. I guess I always feared the things that weren't explainable by physics or were just purely unexplainable. Sometimes we don't know whether its fiction or fact and that's why we fear them so much.
That once in a lifetime experience changed me. Well, at least I think it did.
A week ago or something, I decided to skip school again. As usual, I chose to sleep at home and snore my heart out until... uh 11?
It would have been normal had I not woken up in the middle of my sleep and noticed it.
Perhaps I was just too tired or it was my imagination. Up till now, I'm still unsure. Whatever it is, I know it's not my clothes.
Anyway, I saw something. It was white and it hopped. I wish I could say it was a Chinese vampire like those in movies where you place a talisman on its head and it stops hopping, but its not.
Okay, so if you've watched the pontianak musical in which I acted in, you would probably know about the character Poch. Poch is this very adorable ghost who is all wrapped up and hops around.
I wouldn't know how to describe it but perhaps a photo would be sufficient. After all, a picture tells a thousand words.
Okay. Sorry if that photo scared you. Just scroll down and ignore if you don't like it because if you're scared imagine what I feel.
Because I bloody hell saw that. Okay, maybe not exactly that but yeah. Something similar.
So if you don't want to listen to my story. Or sorry, read... Maybe you should just close this site instead.
So like I was saying, I was sleeping when I saw it. After I saw it, I tried to speak or at least mumble something but my mouth just wouldn't open or omit any sound. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't.
So, I fell asleep. For like a few seconds and woke up.
I looked forward and tried searching for that thing. Everything was looking normal because there were colours and everything. However, within a minute, it changed.
My world changed to grey and it was scary. Can you imagine? It turned grey!? My ears were ringing and I couldn't hear anything. It felt like my body was frozen.
What felt worse was that I was alone. So, I did the one thing I could do, close my eyes and fall asleep. And I did just that.
When I woke up, it was all over.
Actually, the grey colour was the face. They say that the poch's face is either grey or black. Well, I say... Good luck to me.
Sigh, I don't know why I even saw it.
Huzzy said that maybe I was too tired. I might be but it's okay.
Oh well, I'm not that scared of him or ghost or whatever la.
The dead aren't as scary as those living.
The living can hurt us with their words and break our hearts but the dead?
The most they can do is physical damage and kill us?
I'm more scared of the living especially after what's been going on.
No dead can hurt me. (:
So I will have faith in my own strength.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Love.
The say that the final judgement happens because God lost faith in humans because he got sick of all this bullshit. Maybe I'll join him and impose a final judgement.
Your bullshit's enough to make me puke.
It's enough to make me loose faith in you and this fucking world.
You might just think I'm feeling emo & shitty or just over reacting and trying to attract attention. Maybe I am. Maybe I am just expressing my thoughts and feelings. Oh well.
I've given up on a lot, but I won't give up. Not on myself or the strength that I know I have.
Because whatever damage you've dealt on me, it only cuts my skin, forms a scar and causes me to be 10000x stronger.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I'm sick of all your bullshit.
Your choosing of friends.
Your trying to be fucking cool.
Your stickiness.
Are you blind?
Because yes, I can see it. You add him/her because they're fucking cool. And yes, you're not. Duh.
GET A LIFE BITCH.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
BOLD THE THINGS THAT APPLY TO YOU
My shortest relationship was a month. a month plus to be exact but yeah. I’ve had a few short-term boyfriends. all my boyfriends are short term.
I’ve been given flowers. I’ve been given chocolate. friends. I’ve been given shoes/clothes. friends. I’ve been given jewelry. friends.
I’ve been kissed in the rain. I’ve been kissed under the stars.
I’ve been kissed on a roller coaster.
I’ve been kissed in a pool.
I’ve been kissed underwater.
I’ve been kissed while I was driving. I’ve been kissed while I was asleep. I’ve been kissed in a bus.
I’ve been kissed while laying in the grass. I’ve been on a date.
I’ve been on a group date. I’ve taken a nap with a guy.
I’ve made out in a closet. I’ve made out with just a friend.
I’ve made out with a member of the same sex.
I’ve played some sort of kissing game.
I’ve been asked out in person.
I’ve been asked out online.
I’ve been asked out over the phone.
I’ve been asked out on Valentine’s Day. A guy has cooked for me.
A guy has written me a poem.
A guy has sang for me.
A guy has played guitar for me. A guy has carried me.
A guy has given me a piggy back ride.
I’ve cuddled with a guy whom I wasn’t dating.
I’ve been kissed on the lips.
I’ve been kissed on the neck.
I’ve been kissed on the stomach.
I’ve been kissed on the nose. I’ve been kissed on the top of the head.
I’ve been kissed on the hand.
I’ve been kissed on the feet.
I’ve received a hickey.
I’ve given a hickey. I’ve been in love.
I’ve been in lust.
I’ve confessed to a crush.
A crush has confessed to me. I’ve been in a love triangle.
I’ve been on a date to the movies.
I’ve been on a date to a restaurant.
I’ve been on a date to an arcade.
I’ve had a crush on a member of the same sex before and I’m straight.
I’ve been felt up in public.
I’ve been cheated on.
I’ve had feelings for somebody else when I was already taken.
I’ve had feelings for a friend’s boyfriend.
A friend has dated my ex.
I’ve dated a friend’s ex.
I’m still friends with an ex.
A guy has talked dirty to me before. I celebrate anniversaries.
I celebrate monthsaries.
I’ve never been given a promise ring.
A guy has promised me forever. If I have a boyfriend, I give him nicknames.
I’ve fallen for my best friend.
A guy has given me a foot massage.
A guy has rubbed my shoulders. I like holding hands in public.
A guy has tried to take me away from my boyfriend. I’ve cooked/baked for a guy.
I’ve stayed up late talking to a guy I had feelings for.
I haven’t had a sleepover with the opposite sex.
I’ve led a guy on.
I’ve knowingly teased a guy.
I’ve been in the same class as a boyfriend.
I’ve never been in a long distance relationship.
I was in the midst of studying when I saw this on tumblr. && I thought oh, what fun. :D
So, yes. Whatever. I am going to entertain you with a little bit of stupidity. (:
Go through the contact list on your cell phone. Pick one person from each letter that you see. Be sure to use the name that they are put in your phone as, not necessarily actual their name. Skip over letters you are missing. You can only pick ONE person from each letter no matter how much you want to pick more than one, it will make it more fun. Answer all of the questions below completely honestly.
A- Adriel
B- Bronza
C- Chin Ming
D- Diyana
E- Evelyn
F- Fiqa-drama
G- Gillx
H- Huzzy
I- Ikhlas
J- Jet
K- Karishma
L- Linlin
M- Mandy
N- Natalie Nelson
O- ?
P- Pan Zi
Q- n/a
R- Rozi
S- Shireen
T- Tabby
U- ?
V- ?
W- Wesley
X- XiaoJie
Y- Yan
Z- Zee
1. How did you meet C?
Sec 1. Kranji
2. How close are you to R?
She's my Aunt
3. Would you date T?
She's hot.
4. How much do you trust S?
A lot. (:
5. What would happen if Z dated A?
Errr... Won't happen but it would be pretty scary
6. Have you ever seen H cry?
Nope.
7. What would happen if J turned out to be your father?
But he's younger than me.
8. Do you think V is a good person?
Wo bu zhi dao.
9. How do you know M?
The same way I knew C.
10. Have you ever had a crush on L?
She's one of my closest friends but I don't harbour that kind of feelings.
11. If S impregnated K what would happen?
Impregnate her with what?! OMFG. This is so fucking wrong.
12. Have you ever had sex with X?
No.
13. Was it good?
WTF. I haven't had sex. Don't ask.
14. What’s your favorite memory of B?
Imaginary friend.
15. When did you meet D?
In RP, somewhere during a drama meeting
16. Have you ever had a crush on R?
She's my aunt.
18. Do you think G is hot?
Idk.
19. Do you think N is funny?
Irritatingly funny. He's such an idiot
20. Have you ever secretly had a crush on E, L, N, M, or S?
E- she's my wife
L- wtf.
N- eeew. no
M- she's my "concubine"
S- haha. no
21. Do you think K is trustworthy?
yessssu.
22. Do you think that J needs to come out of the closet?
For that you must ask Kelvin
23. If C asked you out how would you react?
Ask, "go where?" (:
We're good friends.
24. How close are you to K?
Close.
25. Have you ever hugged S?
YES
26. What’s your favorite memory with T?
watching her sing.
27. Is I related to you?
nope.
28. Do you get along with J’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
J don't have a bf/gf.
29. What if you had never met M?
My life would be less childish. HAHAHA.
30. What’s your favorite thing to do with B?
Talk and accompany her to smoke.
31. Will you ever go on a road trip with Y?
I guess so. Yan's pretty cool.
32. When’s the last time you saw E?
Like Wednesday & I miss her already.
33. What’s a random fact about P?
She's super cute.
34. What’s your favorite thing about N?
The fact that he's a year younger and so irritating.
35. What’s your favorite memory with L?
There's a lot of awesome moments. But how about primary school days?
36. Describe M in one word.
Child.
37. Do you think C is funny?
YES.
38. Tell me something about R?
She isn't married yet.
39. Who would win in a fight you or L?
Me? But we won't fight eachother.
40. If you had to kiss A or M who would you kiss?
A. Duh. Kissing M would be like kissing my sister.
41. What’s your favorite thing to do with X?
idk. lunch?
42. Have you ever pictured U naked?
who the fuck is U?
43. How long have you been friends with S?
A few months. Gonna be a year?
44. How about B?
Since April 2009.
45. What would you do if you found out J was married?
Holy shit! For real? I'll go find Kelvin!
46. Have you ever been to the mall with Y?
Causeway Point? Is that counted?
47. Do you think M and T would make a good couple?
Nope.
48. Would you hug M?
I have before.
49. Is H secretly gay?
Nuuu.
50. Do you think W needs to go die?
Nooooooo.
51. What about Z?
WTF. Nooo.
52. Have you ever seen U naked?
not again. *groans*
53. Do you even have a U?
No.
54. Describe your relationship with D?
She's one of my drama girls. (:
55. If you found out C was cheating on their significant other with B what would you do?
C's lesbian? OMG. I dun believe.
56. Do S and E know each other?
Nope.
57. How much does M know about you?
Quite alot.
58. Do you think J would be a fun person to get drunk with?
HAHAHAHA! YES.
59. What about Y?
Yes, drank with him before.
60. Could you live with M?
yeah.
61. Do you find B attractive?
Figure nice!
62. What color is J’s hair?
Brown? Black.
63. Does J even have hair?
Yes.
64. Tell us something about W
W laughs at cacat boys.
64. If C told you a secret would you keep it?
Of course I would.
66. You’re totally in love with M aren’t you?
Yeah, cause she's my close friend
67. Don’t lie to me.
I'm not. LOL.
This is stupid. Kbye.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Hope for Haiti.
Been watching the stars singing on Youtube and I'm thinking twice about my own life.
Whatever problems I'm facing now, it's really nothing compared to these people. It's nothing compared to the pain these people will be facing in the future either.
It's funny isn't it? How people we don't know affect our own lives and the way we perceive and lead it.
Whatever problem I have now, no matter how broken I'm feeling... I know.
There's always someone worse out there. So let's pray for them. (:
I love Beyonce's the most. It was beautiful.
Anyway, I saw an advertisement on TV for Ren Ci and the first few thoughts in my head were...
I thought the monk was in court recently?
I would rather donate to Haiti.
Singapore acts on charity shows aren't even that good.
Oh well.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Complicated Love Mess
I'm a complicated mess of a girl trying to find her way back into love. Some days work out fine, some days just don't.
TGIF? Perhaps.
I guess I am thankful that it's Friday and that I don't have any school this weekend. I'm too tired to think about school, what to wear, the people etc. Yes, it's been a pretty long week despite me missing out on 2 days of school.
I wish I could skip the entire week because my body really wasn't feeling too well on the days I turned up for school. I never expected to get food poisoning on Wednesday. ):
This feeling sucks big time.
Guess it all started from the spicy chicken burger from the cafe. Isn't it sad because I obviously loved eating the burger? I was even craving for it for the past few days.
I don't know why, my stomach felt like it was fire. I guess it was the spiciness of the burger. Funny thing is, even I don't feel this way when I ate Mega Mac Spicy. Don't you think it's strange? The feeling was worst than the other time when I got drunk at A's party.
Really suffered for hours because I was forced to go to work. It was lucky that Elle asked me to leave early or else I might have done something I didn't want to do there.
At home, after I took po chai pills to ease the pain and after the nice shower I actually fell asleep for like a few hours before waking up and running to the toilet to throw up. It sure didn't feel nice to see your lunch coming out from your mouth and lying on the toilet floor. I cleaned the toilet myself before going to bed because it was stinking.
The same thing happened again but this time, I was prepared. Tied up my hair and got myself into position before I started. I thought my stomach would have been empty by then but I guess not. :\
Guess it's food poisoning then because I had diarrhoea in the morning which lasted for days.
Pray that I'll get better soon.
Anyway, on Wednesday. Met Hanis after quite some time.
It was such a surprise that he noticed me while we were going up the escalator. I thought he didn't see me and I would have probably ignored him because I wasn't in a really good mood.
Trained with him & his friend, the two of them happen to be my almost non-existent CCC seniors. Had quite a nice chat with him. Talked to him about how A knows Shirou (though he knows this for quite some time already), CCC stuff, drama etc. He was going for an interview, while I was heading to work.
It feels safe to tell him about the CCC things because I guess he can understand.
Also, the journey to work with my stomach aching was made bearable thanks to the fact that I had a friend with me.
Oh Thursday was pretty good. (:
Met up my SAVANCA girls after school. Although only the three of us that night, it felt good to talk to them. There's still a lot for me to share and talk to them about because honestly, I've been keeping too much in this heart of mine.
Ami & I were around town because I wanted to look for shoes and we were getting ideas for the presents. Finally went to 313. It's like my HEAVEN. PARADISE. The F21 is really the best ever. Any girl who loves to shop will love that place! I know I love it. 4 storeys high okay!
Today, Friday wasn't exactly the best.
It's okay because I survived.
Della seems much nicer now. Oh well. :\
The rain in the morning caused me to think about everything in life.
Thought so much about you. For a moment, I thought it wasn't even 22nd Jan but when I reached class, I realised the date and my heart broke.
It hurts a lot.
Guess, my feelings for you are still as strong as ever. Thanks Huzzy for listening to me talk about it because I know it's stupid to listen to my complicated love stories.
These few days, I've been sticking with Huzzy a lot. ♥
Thank goodness for this girl.
Today, we watched Replug. WOOOTS! ALEX! :D
Saw a number of people in the audience that I actually knew. Yes, I'm the so-called social elite what.
JIVE FIESTA was good because of the shops and flea market downstairs.
Got myself this super chio guitar necklace and lace top. (:
A shopaholic, that's me.
It's January, just one more month to go.
Sem 2 has been giving me all sorts of relationship problems with A, ex, keropok etc.
I've been dreaming about love.
And I want to find a love so sweet, it'll last forever but I guess it's not possible with a person like me.
I'm a love mess, but at least I know the ones who stick and stay close to me despite my worst attributes love me for who I am. They're the ones worthy to keep by my side.
So until then, I'll wait. Not for a prince but for a man who is noble enough to sacrifice for me, the same way I will sacrifice for him
When he leaves you because of your littlest faults
Or when you hurt him because of your error
Hold on tightly to what's left of your heart
Because it's your strength that will make you a survivor
When you meet someone else and give him what remains
Despite knowing that there is no future for both of you
Believe in that strength because it will keep you sane
Don't ever doubt what you can give and the truth
Even when you can't take the pain of losing love once more
Have faith dear doll in yourself because it'll come a long way
I won't give in to the pain. Not now. Never.
I'll hold on to the faith I have. The strength of my heart and the purity of my soul. I'll keep waiting for a chance to grow my wings out again because even if I fall, my wings can still carry me.
Happy 22nd January. Would have been a beautiful 1yr 11months if you were still here with me, but it's okay. I hope you're doing well.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
I haven't been to school in 3 days already. It feels as though I'm giving up on school.
My classmates and friends haven't seen me in 5 days and frankly speaking, I think nobody cares.
Nobody asked. So, I assume they don't.
Well, except for Huzzy who tweeted.
Then again, I'm virtually uncontactable. I mean, I've got a phone but I hardly reply messages. I'm not on msn whenever I'm home anymore and I am hardly on facebook anymore. The only way to contact me is twitter if I switch on my lappy and check tweetdeck. Or if you tweet right after I tweet. Another way is email, which I check every night.
I'm losing interest in everything I do again. It's getting mundane, this same old routine. I wish something could spice it up a little. I know my life makes a good television show with a very interesting cast and very very strange and peculiar happenings each day but, to me.... It's a routine. Would be nice if I were to suddenly be forced to be a secret agent or if my long lost relatives come looking for me claiming that I'm an heiress or something. Guess I watch too much drama serials and television to know what's even good for me. :\
Once again, they're all slowly disappearing. Before my very sight and sometimes I wonder what I did to make them go. Maybe they want a breath of fresh air but sometimes, I think if I did something wrong. It gets really awkward whenever I'm around them and then I think, I miss you. I still don't know why they're doing this. Even you're joining them so it hurts me a lot.
Guess I'll be fine on my own. Somehow.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
It's been only a few days since I've got my half of my pay and now I'm left with $70. That equals broke broke broke.
Well, I'm fine with it since I spent $200 of my pay, buying what I forced myself to work for.
No, it isn't the Dr.Martens. I'll be buying that with the next pay check together with Steph & Heidi! ((:
Well, yes. I finally bought my mom's camera.
I don't know how I lost it and being the irresponsible child I am. I don't want to admit I lost it to her, so I decided to replace it with the only way possible. BUY IT!
So, I spent like 5 hours plus of today walking from Liang Court to Sim Lim searching for a camera. Actually, the exact model and stuff. LOL. Almost all the shops we went to didn't sell the bloody camera. They sold the same model but in different colour. ):
Really sad right?
The casio z80. It's discontinued. Finding the vivid pink one was tough. ):
I mean, it's discontinued so don't have lor.
So, we found the next best thing.
A camera which was similar.
And the only ones which were similar and within my budget were...
z33 & z90
The z90 one looks more similar but since I have a budget of $200...
I got...
The z33 instead.
The only difference in terms of design is the side and the back. It's black instead of pink.
Hope my mother doesn't notice that its different.
We bought this at Sim Lim. The bloody camera was $190. The case was $10. ):
Total. $200 and no memory card.
Grrrrrr.
What a waste of my pay. But we have learnt a lesson havent we?
Do not loose your mother's things. LOL.
Thanks Neez for accompanying me. (:
Anyway, went over to Casa Merah afterwards because I wanted to visit my aunt.
She gave birth to my cousin already.
I'm going back tomorrow so expect peeeeeeektures okay! (:
Friday, January 15, 2010
GIVE ME MY PAY!
GRRR!
So, if you've been following my twitter... You would have probably heard/read about the drama regarding my pay. Yes, I am so pissed and angry but I shall start explaining about it from Day One.
So, the story begins...
On 3rd January, my boss' secretary smsed me asking for my bank account number so my pay would be credited in. That meant, "HURRAH! PAY WILL BE RECEIVED SHORTLY!"
If you think good news, well you're wrong because if it were good news, there would not even be a story in the first place.
Because....
On the 7th or something, we received an email...
"
Hi all,
Just a headsup, your Dec's pay salary will be credited via bank transfer
latest by next Tue (12 Jan) due to some delay in the bank transfer. We
will try to credit by Mon. Sorry for the inconvenience caused."
(I refuse to write who sent it & the company's name.
I don't want legal action to be taken against me any time soon.)
At that point of time, I was a little angry but it's okay... I wait.
Until I got another email which totally pissed me off.
"Hi all,
I know you do not want to hear this news, however, I still need to keep you
informed. "Boss" is currently in UK and if you read the news, you know the
weather is very bad with freezing snow. "Boss" called me last night that she
has difficulty in having the internet connected to approve the giro payment
for all your salary due to bad weather in UK. She will try her best to see
what she can do to get the connection and approve as fast as she can. We
really apologise for this unforeseen circumstances. Please be assured that
it is NOT our intention to hold back your salary, it is really beyond our
control with this situation.
I will keep all of you informed again on the update.
Please do accept our apologies."
(Changed boss's name to boss.)
Fuck. I don't know got such thing like bad weather affects internet connection.
Who are you trying to kid? My grandmother?
Okay, so I wait for more news because I was praying for a miracle.
And also because I was nice.
At this time, the rest started to send emails to irritate her.
I wanted to do that too but I was too busy with whatever I was doing which was actually pretty much nothing.
So, luckily we received an email...
"Hi all,
Thank you for your patience.
Boss has managed to approve the giro payment, please check your bank
account on Thu (14 Jan) to see whether your payout is in. The transfer
process takes 2 days since all of you have different banks from our issuing
bank.
"
At that moment, I heaved a sigh of relief. AT LAST! I understand the whole different banks and interbanking thing takes time to process so it's fine with me. But, the drama still doesn't end here.
Because on the 13th of Jan, Belinda smsed me and guess what.
I only received HALF of my pay. And so did the rest.
Guess what stupid reason my boss gave.
MOM will check because we never deduct CPF. (all of us opt not to deduct except for Nurul)
WTF?! Stupid reason can. So, we'll only get the other half together with our January pay.
EXCUSE ME?! What rubbish is this?
If I were to calculate, my January pay would probably be about the same as half of my Dec pay. If you were to add up Jan's pay and half of Dec's pay, it would be the same as my Dec pay. So what? You're gonna cut it half again?!
RUBBISH. Don't bullshit with me.
I am like so fucking pissed la. I was expecting like 500+/- but no, I received 475 only. Eh, I thought I hit 1000?! Rubbish right?
And you know! I don't get commission and NO OVERTIME PAY.
I worked on Christmas Eve, Christmas & the day after and still no overtime pay?!
Unfair right?
Grrrrrrr.
Please la, after all your excuses you only pay us half of our pay... -.-'''
You think we're what? 8 yrs old?
Hi, Belinda & I are 19 this year.
Nurul & Idah are 21!
You're not only finding trouble with us, you're finding trouble with OUR PARENTS!
Because we're still under THEIR CARE, they are CONCERNED about us.
And what do concerned parents do? They can MAKE REPORTS and COMPLAINS.
Who the fuck cares about CPF? MOM will bloody FINE YOU for not paying your workers.
We are not your slaves. Don't fucking demand us to make good sales when you don't appreciate us and don't even pay us.
Good sales start with good service. Good service starts with good treatment of staff. Which you FAIL.
Don't think I know nothing. *rolls eyes*
Hi, I'm a DCID student. I study marketing as a module.
I was the vice president of my YE club and yes, I know business!
I might as well work as a bangla worker at a construction site you know. Hey, pay may be cheap but I get paid ON TIME, I get free food and lodging... At least I'll be happier working for them than for you.
And you can ask your husband to talk to us one by one. But by doing so, it proves that you dare not take us ALL. Which means, something is WRONG.
If the company is having financial problems, you still have to pay.
If you overshot your budget for salary, then oh I'm sorry. It's your fucking fault.
You hired soooooo many workers for IDK what reason. -.-''' For a period of time, Taka had more than enough workers (9 or 10 is alot). Then you blame Elle for the schedule.
Then when you don't need those workers, you threw them away?! Then you suddenly hired a Jane? None of us have ever met Jane. Poor girl. Are you sure she's not your imaginary friend?
Damn it la. I JUST WANT MY PAY! D:
So while you're liaising with the suppliers in London, I shall wait patiently for you to come back and pay me my fucking money.
My wishlist and shopping list has so been updated. Again.
1. Dr. Martens (the pink colour ones)
2. wedges
3. hello kitty tshirt
4. watch
5. sneakers 6. wallet (I GOT THE SPARKLY PINK ONE!)
7. leggings (extremely bright colours)
8. dresses/tunics (black and dark colours)
9. accessories (mostly bangles & rings) 10. leather jacket (faux leather. go check my twitter. bought with pay at OSF Far East)
11. denim jacket
12. jeans (preferably acid wash)
13. bag
14. DSLR
15. perfume (i saw what i want going at $38)
16. t-shirts
17. make-up brushes (my mom bought these for me & I don't need any new ones)
18. tank tops
19. skirts
20. hair accessories (headbands, hair bands and hair ties)
21. eyelash extensions
22. black and purple hair 23. clutch (for going out and stuff)
24. MAC eyeshadows
25. coastal scents gel liner
26. acoustic guitar
27. PARAMORE TICKETS
28. flip flops
29. tankini
30. cellulite massage essential oil (the auntie gave me staff discount. bought with my pay)
31. psp
32. ipod touch
33. concealer (I bought Mac. with my pay)
34. seeshell contact lens in aqua and grey
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Damn. I have lots of things to get. Here's an update to my shopping list. I'm gonna put it at the side later. (:
1. Dr. Martens (the pink colour ones)
2. wedges
3. hello kitty tshirt
4. watch
5. sneakers 6. wallet (I GOT THE SPARKLY PINK ONE!)
7. leggings (extremely bright colours)
8. dresses/tunics (black and dark colours)
9. accessories (mostly bangles & rings)
10. leather jacket
11. denim jacket
12. jeans (preferably acid wash)
13. bag
14. DSLR
15. perfume (i saw what i want going at $38)
16. t-shirts
17. make-up brushes (my mom bought these for me & I don't need any new ones)
18. tank tops
19. skirts
20. hair accessories (headbands, hair bands and hair ties)
21. eyelash extensions
22. black and purple hair 23. clutch (for going out and stuff)
24. MAC eyeshadows
25. coastal scents gel liners
Adding on.
26. acoustic guitar
27. PARAMORE TICKETS
28. flip flops
29. tankini
30. cellulite massage essential oil
31. psp
32. ipod touch
33. concealer
34. seeshell contact lens in aqua and grey
I'm doomed.
So many WANTS. Very few needs. Actually, the needs, my parents will pay la. LOL. When I'm out with them, which will be in a few hundred days later. LOL.
My mom's camera is not in the list because it is a priority. HAHA.
I make so many exceptions for you but you're blind to it all. I wish you would notice it. All the replying your text message at insane hours, conquering my fears and confiding everything in you. I don't do that for just anyone. It's for you and only you. You're special. I wish you knew.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
The first week of school & I already started indulging in cookies & cream milkshake? Die. Die. Die.
It' the YUMMIEST drink ever especially when I request for whipped cream, which is highly fattening. Grrrr. ):
I should know better than this.
I think soon. There'll be no more time or money to indulge in yummy drinks like this. ):
My dad is cutting my allowance by half. Die.
What and How to live with only $5?
$5 not even enough to buy a meal at Mac lor. Damn it.
On days that I have work, this amount of money is probably NOT enough. No, it is not enough.
WHY? School food is expensive. Food outside is even more expensive.
Damn damn damn.
I think I have to live on my pay which probably would not happen.
Therefore, I think I need to diet.
Eat less. Or more like eat nothing but the spicy chicken burger.
And that's that.
Time to diet Aishah, time to exercise. ): *grumbles*
Saturday, January 9, 2010
TGIF and I love Saturdays
I did fall in love on Friday. I fell in love and now, I'm so fucking happy. I didn't expect to fall in love so soon you know. (: Then again, nobody ever expects anything especially when it comes to love... Never expect it, because it comes naturally and is a surprise! :D
Guess who I fell for? I'm really not afraid to admit it because these feelings are so genuine and pure. Plus, they know it too. Awwwww. (:
I fell for.
Ida & Shaa.♡
So anti-climax right? Hahaha. You were expecting some guy's name to come up but I mentioned two girls? I bet you're cursing me right now. LOL.
Yes, I've fallen for them. WHY WHY WHY?
Our class finally spoke up and voiced out our opinions to Della about Della.
It all started with Ida.
"If we're not so sarcastic to you can you be less sarcastic to us?"
Then Shaa.
"But you are emotional! You cried in class the other day?"
"I'm speaking for the rest of the class." (Which is true btw)
Haha. The class msn convo was like I love you guys!
This Della does not want to admit she's wrong okay. Bitch.
Just admit you're emotional, apologise to us and stop it.
Then after that, she sucked up to all of us including me.
Rubbish.
"Aishah, you should come earlier to the class. You bring sunshine to the class."
I'm like WTF? What sunshine? Like hello, nobody cares about me you know. -.-''
These people don't even bother about me even if I don't attend class and nobody misses me at all. What sunshine? I'll be bringing them laughter I guess, because I always do something stupid. *rolls eyes*
Thank god I did not speak up. Bronza wasn't in class and I was not in the mood.
We tag team! :D
Haha. No la, it's just that...
If I did. I swear, vulgarities would come out & Della would end up crying.
Please do not make me angry.
Anyway, I chao-ed class soon after.
I mean, I only came during 2nd meeting and left without presenting. Stupid.
Yes, I love Ida & Shaa.
Work was okay as usual.
NB. I kena awkward moment again.
Come out of toilet, walking towards counter when the guy infront of me turned said Hi & asked if can get to know me. I walked off said no softly but smiled. Paiseh ttm.
Oh, btw. My aunt gave birth on Fri morning. Gonna see the baby soon!
And today is SATURDAY.
HELLO AGAIN SCHOOL!
I enjoyed today's open house duty although I slacked more than did work.
I did talk. Explained about year one modules and forced RP students to sing to get badges.
Oh & us CCC students had a good laugh.
There was this one girl who wanted a badge but did not want to sing.
So she asked if she could give us for free and I don't know she said that her faci was Hetty Liu from CCC.
We were all like, "HUH?" Who the hell is Hetty Liu?
And she threatened to call her faci.
She even complained to us, "But you're all just year ones. Why are you guys so selfish?"
By then, the year threes were there too.
So someone said, "We're not all year ones. We're year 3."
Then we argued a bit and said we're selfish and walked off in a huff. *rolls eyes*
WE LAUGHED AT HER. Poor girl.
I think she called her faci soon after.
But. The badge rule thing was told by the person in charge.. We're not being selfish. We're being obedient students by listening to the rules.
HAHAHA. Bitch much.
I kept on walking towards Registration because this Yan Yan was there. And I kept on taking freebies like the drinks because they were handing them out.
I swear I almost exploded from drinking and I got a free subway cookie! YUMMMMMM.
Hahahahaha.
And I saw red campers today! (:
Yes, they know me okay.
They were like, "Eh, itu Aishah red camp." ((:
Nice.
And awkward moment again. This time, I'm so thankful there was Michelle.
She saved my life.
I absolutely loved today.
CCC (Y)
FTW mannnnnn.
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Aishah Aiiyame
I lost my heart once upon a time. Now I'm just the cotton candy emo queen with a bubblegum for my shield. ♥ ______
07 August 1991 kranjian
RP DCID CCC
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