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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Commitment
I would never say I'm a busy person and that I have no time for friends, but I'm starting to see that I am. It upsets me a lot because I never thought that this day would happen.I'm the sort of person who drifts from clique to clique. I'm the butterfly that never settles. I guess you could say I don't belong in any specific clique. I'm not one of the preps, neither am I a geek or jock. I'm not that popular and neither am I a loser. I can easily say that I'm afraid of getting too close. Afraid of commitment to people. Afraid of the emotional attachment that I would develop. SAVANCA is a different case altogether. Before school even started, I was already planning to find something to do. Something which would make me so exhausted that I would have no time for people and even myself. I wanted to commit myself to interests and work stuff. But that day has come. I'm proven wrong. I developed emotional attachment and feelings for someone and now it kills me. It killed me that I could not spend time with him when he needed me the most. It kills me inside to know that I spent time with the elites instead of him. Now, we're dying a little inside. But what can I say and what can I tell you? I have my commitments and it kills me. Drama ended. Now commitments to my social life and my obligations as a daughter, a student and a sister. I'm sorry to my family too because I'm never home during weekends either. So what now? Wish I could spend this weekend at home but you know I can't. ): We'll wait until the holidays. I promise. Until now, I shall keep myself busy because of commitments. Party on Wed. Job or play or home on thursday night? Party for sure on fri night. And this weekend is AFA. Wonder if I will go. Next week will be another busy week. Trust me, I should know. That's another day in my life. Commitments and such. |
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